Thanks To SNL

It all started with me walking in to tell my kids to turn down the sound on the TV and the funniest skit on "Fifty Shades of Grey" was playing on their 2012 Mother's Day Special.  I hadn't heard of the book and was immediately intrigued so I downloaded the book to my Kobo.  

Thoughts of 50 Shades got me to thinking about sex, my life and what I was doing with the second half of it.  

Not since the night I lay in the back window of my parent’s car gazing up to the night sky the eve of turning 9, as Mom and Dad changed a flat tire on our way home from our cottage,  that I‘ve contemplated my mortality.  Things were never so bleak for me that night, realizing that my parents wouldn’t be alive for ever and either would I. Thinking about my life, of course my thoughts rolled around to my weight.  I’ve never been svelte, but I did wear a bikini when I was a teen and looked damn good but since then it’s been a downhill battle – I’ve been losing and the fat’s been winning for years.

So I got to thinking about what I’ve done over the years to try and take on the challenge of getting back into that bikini.  I’ve tried all kinds of diets, eating regimes, tricks, but my will power has never proven to be any type of lasting warrior, it just kind of rolls over and plays dead as I pillage the cupboards at night. 

Over the past years I’ve heard about Jenny Craig but know no one who has gone on the program.  I watched Kirstie Alley and her success on the program loosing 100 lbs.  She is absolutely beautiful and I love her personality.  I figure if I have a role model for how I would love to look now, let alone how amazingly sexy she looks  at 61 – well that it a goal to strive for.

I took the challenge and I joined Jenny Craig and started this journey to reshape myself inside (Lord knows there’s a hot mess going on in there) and outside.  I’m taking this adventure on in one month chunks.  I started the new way of living on Thursday, May 17, 2012.  This blog will be my report on how I fair with Jenny Craig, my outside transformation and my internal 50 shades of hot mess.

I’ve just started week 3 and am down 10 lbs after two weeks.  I’ve experienced two sugar lows this past week that indicate to me that my Type II diabetes meds are probably too much with this new portion-controlled eating style.  Who knew what “normal” portions of food should be – it reminds me of the size of meals my Great Grandmother used to put on her plate, how times have changed and maybe they shouldn’t have!  I’ll have to see my doctor, but not until I’m sure I need to – who knows better than me…oh yah, another thing I need to change.  

I’ve never blogged before, so this may not be pretty, but I’ll learn as I try something else new in my life.